deja vu all over again
Friday, May 17, 2019
So I get to work yesterday after my stressful day at home with the condo surprise fire alarm tests, and get an email. It was the day for our fire alarm test at work. Too funny.
I didn't mean to complain about the issue with the alarms, but thank you for all your kindness and support. I was thinking of it as a situation where I felt stress and felt like eating in response to it. And try to reframe my behavior. Like, "Is it really hunger" or "what else could it be?" I have a bad habit of snacking, I guess, and stress makes it worse.
I've pared down the snacks. But I want to be able to get hit with stress and react by stepping back and taking a new direction. Eating doesn't solve problems. It can create them. In the long term, and possibly even the short term, I will feel better.
I'm still stepping back momentarily when I feel myself feeling upset. Kind of stepping up to hug myself. Because picking on myself has got to go. And when I do this, I feel instantly better. It's amazing how much energy angst uses up.
The point is to seize the moment when I do something automatically, step back, acknowledge it, and see that I have a choice. I don't have to do what I've always done just because I've always done it.